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I always seem to have as much fun as I can and try to keep everything relatively balanced. I might as well, hell I'm only 24 and still have lots of time left. Yet amoungst all the fun and friends and parties, I find myself lost in the underlying plot. Consumed by this ever changing world. I am trapped in a box manifested by my inner turmoil. Yet I still seem to wear a smile on my face. Why not, I might as well. You might as well live each day like it is your last. At night, I like to lay in my bed looking over the adventures of my day and making sure I have lived life to the fullest and making sure there isn't anything I really regret. For the most part I find myself satisfied with my decisions. Yet there is a nagging voice hidden in the back that always finds something I need to resolve to find that absolute bliss I seek. A bliss that merely makes me truely happy...a bliss that most never find. I am not saying happiness in it's normal form. I'm talking about a happiness inwhich I never find something I need to resolve. A happiness that I am sure one only finds when they have reached the moment of their death. A happiness that really can only be experienced at that exact moment. But why must we wait for that. Why can't we just experience it now. Why must life be so flawed. Why must we find ourselves consumed by feelings that may not be right. Feelings that lead us to be lost, when really we are not. We merely forgot to take off the blindfold that morning. We forgot that we are not blind, just forgetful. So remember...no matter what, do what your heart and soul tell you to do. That way you will not have any regrets at the end of the day.